deeply in awe at the many things that God is showing me about Himself. it's humbling to see the work of His hands in mylife ... seriously Christ's love is the strenght that is preventing me from falling, His love ... the arms that are so warm, so comforting, healing the pain in my heart and that same love of His, is giving me the hope to look beyond today and look forward to the tomorrow that is coming with our Savior. not that im trying to escape the situations of today but when times get rough sometimes ... it's nice to know that our tomorrow with Christ will be with the abscence of tears. i definitely im thankful to God for the many different situations that are being used to refine me, polish me and most of all, Him enabling me to see Him (His amazing grace, His pierced hands) in the midst of it all. being molded is tough, submission is a must!!!  we must trust and obey!!! (thank You Lord that You determine my steps)

PROVERBS 16: 9  the mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.

man God is so in control =) .... so trust and obey!!!!

i thank God so so much for you. i thank God for blessing me with someone like you who not only made such a big impact in my life but who so lovingly cared for me, my ates and kuyas. thank you po so so much. when i asked you if you knew Jesus Christ .... you made my heart smile .... you knew who He is in your life and what He did on the cross for you ...(thank you po Lord God). i love you and i will miss you so so much specially that sweet smile that always greeted me whenever i visited you, it was pretty funny how i tried to trick you (i was unsuccessful) a couple of times to test how alert you were, telling you i was donna, but to my surprise you recognized me ... "you're armen not donna" you confidently corrected me with your raspy voice and with those seem to be so heavy eyes as you tried your hardest to open them so that you could see me ...even at the last moment you've proven me that you knew me well. thank you for loving me and making me feel so special. i remember this one very special moment with you before you left .... as i brushed your hair i kissed you on the forehead ..... tears just came rushing down .... your scent ....that certain scent that only you have ...  brought me back to my childhood days..... yes memories of  our family with you ....i will never forget the many times it rained and how i would play out in the rain with my ates and kuyas. and right after enjoy your famous "champorado" ....  ithink that explains why i so love the rain and how i always like to drive around when it's raining hmmm ....  you never left the house with your hair down it was always pulled back nice and neat... simple but elegant looking ... your beautiful face the first thing i saw in the morning as you woke me up to get ready for school and how you are to blame for why i am a caffeine addict hahaha .... remember you always gave me a cup of  hot coffee in the morning  "oh bangon na ready na ang coffee"  remember???? i will never forget that, i was six years old drinking coffee. what about the time when you would so patiently listen to me sing over and over and over and over again?( you see guys it's her fault) .... you never got tired hearing me sing. you would actually request songs for me to sing while i helped you cook ..... at six years old you made me feel like i could sing anything (at a young age i did not know the meaning of  "being in tune" basically i made my own melody) and sound good. .... this is so funny twenty something years later ......( yes twenty something years ...   ) im still the same!!!!! anyway, what about the time when we got busted by kuya arnold because you would secretly slip boiled eggs in my school bag for baon aside from lunch money you gave me  for school. he cried so hard because he thought that you loved me more. i felt bad for him .... oh poor baby .... he had no idea i was your favo ... argh (oops i almost wrote i am your favorite ... it's a good thing i caught myself. pls don't tell him ) i mean that you were really concern about my health because when i was alittle girl boiled egg was the only thing i had appetite for. up to now he is still talking about theose boiled eggs ....oh please get over it hahaha just kidding kuya. you will always be in my heart and my thoughts ..... thank you for all that you've done for me and my family ... I LOVE YOU LOLA!!!!!

and to all of you ..... i thank our precious God for you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, and most specially you. thanks for you guys' time and effort, finding time to be there for me really touched my little heart .... this means alot to me. THANK YOU!!!!

give me one pure and holy passion and give me one magnificent obsession, give me one glorious ambition for my life, to know and follow hard after You to know and follow hard after You, to grow as Your disciple in the truth, this world is empty, pale and poor ,compared to knowing You my Lord , lead me on and i will run after You .............

Lord i plea to you to please bless me with the passion to follow you. please do not allow my heart  be hardened .... i want to run after you ..... i want to follow hard after you.  i want to know you more each day, as i take each breath, as i sing your songs, as i read your promises, as i try so hard to fight, as i struggle oh Lord, i know that YOU are the one  i need resting in my heart, mind and soul. oh Lord please, please your grace i need to overcome my uncertainties, my uneasiness, my doubts, my fears, my questions ...... please lead me on ..... please ................